fail life

previously i been a lot of things happen to my life

getting detention from UK broad without a visa
till wan to hide from everyone in SGM
i wont go back to SGM
loss my precious Kai Mui
didn't achieved anything as i promise
some more addicted on gamble most record is 7 time a week
truly is the most failure life i have

i think life must carry on the walk
just focus my study and try to earn more money to entertain myself


try to have a better life that's all

by looking these picture really bring back many memories specially the second picture is like a before and after picture to me.

i really don know how much i have changed during this two and a half year

i really don know other changed how much

and till the same I'm single and decision already have made

the way to study on board is what i been dream and i want to change my environment

you can say i wanted to leave or escape from the realities i facing now

hope to go a fantasy world that i dream of.

cant believe it the pass two year and now have changed so much .

wishes haven't come true and determination has not been done yet but till we need to work hard now

target 10 people and before my birthday a gf by my side

another starting point

at Melacca now

what a wonderful life having here

yahoooo!!
!
SGM part:
done performance
finaly applied gohonzhon

family part:
my aunt starting to chant, slowly will become a member soon

love part:
i guess i'm not think about jocye anymore
considering about what lu yi ( my dear sister) say about try to like nicky

is true that nicky is a nice girl and i kinda like her
but then she live in melacca and it hard for me to go there often
she just broke up with her ex
i cant chase her now thats mean i taking chance
beside if i chase i also don know she will like me or not

somemore almost having the 2nd sem need to work hard
and the SGM part are being tough now they are starting a big plan i need to assit them
most important thing is i will be going to UK and study
i cant let a girl i love waited me so long
i'm not GT

i guess i need to work more hard

challenge

by now i should be facing a lot of challenge in my life

like Gymnastic now having a mederka project , Sgm every friday need to find someone to council , assignment july and Aug is all the assignment due date and family till have let my family true understand what is faith.

but i don know why these days of my life been have a lot of mistake

wonder why?

i think is time for me to return back the point where i start faith

chee weng don't over confident please

haiz
i till haven't completely put down my ex-girlfriend
what to do ?

till havent find another one that can replace her or my only one

isnt that hard to find?

am i a guy worth to be loved?

maybe i not handsome that other not rich than other

but i really know how to let my girlfriend feel happiness

is that what suppose a boyfriend do?

feel frustrated.............

Dreams

I been dream the same person all the time
maybe i miss her
till my mouth say i didnt miss her but in deep inside my heart i am
even i miss her also is not a big deal she had boyfren already is not my business
i only chant for her happiness through her life
feel very lonly wan to have my life back
wan to find a girlfren who wan be hahahaha
i don have the right to choose who i like
just hope every girl can see my good side ^^

SAD

when i look at this pic it bring back many many memories those memories that i hate and love.
really hope our relationship will back where suppose to be
hope this day will come
really hope
other thing i wan to say about is 2010 the culture performance has cancel because of the H1N1 when i heard this news it make me more and more sad my dream my hope are cush like glasses fall down the ground
now all that i have planned in 2010 cant be complete without a target i'm hopeless
if there a god out there plsss i beg u totaly cure this H1N1

Fren

19 year old of me
i feel like i didnt achieve anything in my life
feel lonely... cold
cant believe that a best fren so easily become ur enemy or a stranger
life is like so boring without friend

today i sleep at my college best fren house
i feel like i didnt change a bit always like to sleep other ppl house
wakakakaa i already used to it

chee weng a guy that help ppl but cant help himself ^^ very funny
i'm a boss in college ppl tread me like one
but i don think i'm
somehow that i really don know how to help them at all
i keep acting like i know everything and done everything in my life
but i have missed many thing and time
i'm a loser not a winner
wish i can go back to the time and change what i have done to my friend but i impossible to do this. Keep thinking like this doesnt benift at all just make things wose

just have to face it be strong my dear chee weng wilson how