by looking these picture really bring back many memories specially the second picture is like a before and after picture to me.

i really don know how much i have changed during this two and a half year

i really don know other changed how much

and till the same I'm single and decision already have made

the way to study on board is what i been dream and i want to change my environment

you can say i wanted to leave or escape from the realities i facing now

hope to go a fantasy world that i dream of.

cant believe it the pass two year and now have changed so much .

wishes haven't come true and determination has not been done yet but till we need to work hard now

target 10 people and before my birthday a gf by my side

another starting point

at Melacca now

what a wonderful life having here

yahoooo!!
!
SGM part:
done performance
finaly applied gohonzhon

family part:
my aunt starting to chant, slowly will become a member soon

love part:
i guess i'm not think about jocye anymore
considering about what lu yi ( my dear sister) say about try to like nicky

is true that nicky is a nice girl and i kinda like her
but then she live in melacca and it hard for me to go there often
she just broke up with her ex
i cant chase her now thats mean i taking chance
beside if i chase i also don know she will like me or not

somemore almost having the 2nd sem need to work hard
and the SGM part are being tough now they are starting a big plan i need to assit them
most important thing is i will be going to UK and study
i cant let a girl i love waited me so long
i'm not GT

i guess i need to work more hard

challenge

by now i should be facing a lot of challenge in my life

like Gymnastic now having a mederka project , Sgm every friday need to find someone to council , assignment july and Aug is all the assignment due date and family till have let my family true understand what is faith.

but i don know why these days of my life been have a lot of mistake

wonder why?

i think is time for me to return back the point where i start faith

chee weng don't over confident please

haiz
i till haven't completely put down my ex-girlfriend
what to do ?

till havent find another one that can replace her or my only one

isnt that hard to find?

am i a guy worth to be loved?

maybe i not handsome that other not rich than other

but i really know how to let my girlfriend feel happiness

is that what suppose a boyfriend do?

feel frustrated.............

Dreams

I been dream the same person all the time
maybe i miss her
till my mouth say i didnt miss her but in deep inside my heart i am
even i miss her also is not a big deal she had boyfren already is not my business
i only chant for her happiness through her life
feel very lonly wan to have my life back
wan to find a girlfren who wan be hahahaha
i don have the right to choose who i like
just hope every girl can see my good side ^^

SAD

when i look at this pic it bring back many many memories those memories that i hate and love.
really hope our relationship will back where suppose to be
hope this day will come
really hope
other thing i wan to say about is 2010 the culture performance has cancel because of the H1N1 when i heard this news it make me more and more sad my dream my hope are cush like glasses fall down the ground
now all that i have planned in 2010 cant be complete without a target i'm hopeless
if there a god out there plsss i beg u totaly cure this H1N1

Fren

19 year old of me
i feel like i didnt achieve anything in my life
feel lonely... cold
cant believe that a best fren so easily become ur enemy or a stranger
life is like so boring without friend

today i sleep at my college best fren house
i feel like i didnt change a bit always like to sleep other ppl house
wakakakaa i already used to it

chee weng a guy that help ppl but cant help himself ^^ very funny
i'm a boss in college ppl tread me like one
but i don think i'm
somehow that i really don know how to help them at all
i keep acting like i know everything and done everything in my life
but i have missed many thing and time
i'm a loser not a winner
wish i can go back to the time and change what i have done to my friend but i impossible to do this. Keep thinking like this doesnt benift at all just make things wose

just have to face it be strong my dear chee weng wilson how

Gathering

yeah today i having great time !!!
i very miss u guys!!!
This morning 10am going out to fetch chun kit, Jess and shin nee
when i reach chun kit's house i called him and he answer me i oversleep haven't take a shower yet. Oh No late again so i waited him for a half an hour then i set off to cheras again fetch other two person
when i reach Jess's house 11am i till need to wait her haiz why i go out with u all sure need to wait haha don let them see this
after i fetch Jess then i only know i need to fetch jun Nam i always forget him. when i reach his house i called him he answer me he reached TS wow good no need to fetch him
after that i go fetch shin nee. shin nee very good no need me to wait haha
12pm reach TS
gather all 6 person then go newway sing k
yeah very long time didn't sing k d very miss those days sing k wit u guys
but this time left 3 people kinda sad that didn't have u all sing k together
after finish sing k we go play blowing

first time play can win hahaha